stepping stones

blankest prayer yesterday -
confused, ugly, messy,
meaningless;
yuck.

today I see again (but how?) what yesterday I had again forgotten
that it was a surprising stepping stone
over the choppy waters - dark and cold -

where is the next? - you say -

and, looking back, (it's alright)
I see some of those stepping stones:
beautiful!
stretching away into the history of me.

don't forget: the blanker the better!
because these are the ones that really count.
only heaven knows why. 

are you really leading me away from understanding anything?

by the way: those piano pieces I can hardly play.
tonight I know you love them.
thank you for that.
with all my heart.
thank you.