In the end, though there will be nothing to show. this will not matter.
You are, and the truth is that this is enough.
actually much more than enough.
The psalmist says "What is there to wait for?"
and it has nearly always been a problematic line for me;
suggesting emptiness; a lack of meaning.
.
"Why even bother?"
A bit like the "all is vanity" stuff.
But the world shouts its joy in it all
and so do You!
how to put this:
it was in those moments when I became acutely aware of your absence -
that hole in my soul perhaps?
that I knew your presence!
I am still quietly reeling; it had been such sleepy, lazy prayer.
up at the point as the light faded.
The Spirit loves you so
and is His love also a yearning?
Silly!
All love is a yearning!
Unquenchable?
This sounds in one way tragic.
but this is not the case
because the kernel of yearning is delight.
that brightest centre of a flame.
contradictions abound where you are concerned.
and I suspect that you delight in these.
teasing us.
I watched an old black and white film about Thomas Merton - made presumably shortly after his death - which includes a filmed extract from his final speech in December 1968 which I did not even know existed. Some shots are then shown of the hotel room (apparently owned by the Red Cross) where he died so tragically from electrocution by a faulty fan. A message below (on youtube of course) mentions a book written in 2015 advancing the conspiracy theory that he was actually murdered (there was no post-mortem). I googled a review in the Irish Times dated from 2018 which makes light of this claim but also, strangely. makes light of Thomas Merton himself in ways that seemed to me just as conspiratorial. All that aside, the reviewer quotes Merton at one point:
"The created world is itself an epiphany of divine wisdom and love."