today started simply enough: waves of doubt, anxiety, despair, and confusion but no need to worry.
stay open and give and there was joy in that.
it's when the waves suddenly change direction and come from within that it becomes harder: the need for steady focus

tuesday psalms all about enemies but it's hard to remember who and where.

this afternoon: nostalgia. also an enemy.

this afternoon: improvisation surprisingly tumultuous.
but I think I know why