is it real as simple as this?
my need to give and my ability to give
both gifts from you.
and yet giving is not so easy.
people don't necessarily want to be 'given to'.
walls, bars, gates, restrictions everywhere.
doubt, suspicion, refusal . . . .
which suggests that the ability to receive is as much a gift as the ability to give.
but not in you.
in you: freedom to give and freedom to receive.