browsing through

browsing through this blog I came upon this
'my main desire was to get unconfused.'

put more simply:
I longed for control;
to be in control;
to stay in control;

yes, I got things done
but never allowed anyone close enough
to do anything to me.
when you tried, I walked away.

this time though, you forced my hand
and led me where I would not go.
you broke me
and won my heart