treasure

zooey tells franny that her prayer
is merely another way of storing up treasure.

but doesn't jesus say somewhere,
'store up treasure for yourselves in heaven' . . ?

so it's not a problem then?

except that, as we search, you teach us
that treasure in heaven is unlike any other treasure:
it does not exist!

you guide us inexorably
towards a complete emptiness!*

today I have to start over.
again.
but this should not make me sad.
far from it.
I can only come to you as the rawest recruit.

*this sounds terribly sad,
but the sadness wasn't what I meant at all;
not at all!