during illness

thinking of St Bernard.
passionate Christianity.
it sometimes seems sentimental to me.
but passionate love always does to those who do not share it.

your imminence. 

the gulf between us is all our perception.
like a man blindfolded by mischievous friends and taken up imagined steps to what he perceives as a high place. asked to jump from the high place he is filled with terror. When forced, or pushed, he discovers that the fall is just inches. he is laughing then but the terror was real. 


daily life draws us away, back into fear, doubt and separation.  we cannot remember you. we are in your presence or we are not. this is how we perceive.

the reality of your imminence does not make you imminent to us.
seeking, we find.
not seeking, we don't find.

oh one more thing.
spiritual life, musical life. artistic life. emotional life. all tributaries of one river.
except the analogy is wrong because a river flows downhill.

a tree would be a better analogy. trunk and branches.