from the 'word from the desert' blog.
[It's not how I would word it but it resounds nonetheless.]

For if you change from inhumanity to almsgiving, you have stretched forth the hand that was withered.
If you withdraw from theatres and go to church, you have cured the lame foot.
If you draw back your eyes from a harlot, you have opened them when they were blind.
These are the greatest miracles.

St. John Chrysostom

actually though, I am quite near rock-bottom:
I have forgotten why.
There is a strange thing about the 'why' though.
we ask the question because we don't know the answer,
but this particular question cannot be answered. I know this through experience.
This 'why' is only answered by 'doing' whether we know why or not.
when we 'do' we find out 'why', but not the other way round.

which reminds me that the fundamental problem with luther's concept of 'faith alone' is that it paves the way to not doing. and when we don't do we gradually lose you and when we lose you - our desire for you - we lose our faith as well.
we 'do' because where we spend our time is where our heart is.

desire, faith and you. these words cannot be separated out: they are just aspects.